1 October 2017

What seems like an age ago now I was informed I had to arrange a babysitter for Saturday, to attend one of his colleagues Birthday parties, just two weeks after my non event of a Birthday. He allegedly still wanted me to attend, as friends, although his drunken ramblings also informed me that the Birthday girl didn't want Girl 1 attending and she thought he was being all manner of idiotic swear word over the whole situation. So following my 'Man up' motto I decide to risk it all and attend the car crash.

6 September 2017

A couple of days after the last fiasco, I decide I need to be the better person. I still want him back, I want it to all go back to the way it was. I feel like I need him, I am so alone and I crave human contact. A simple hug right now would undo me.
I ask if he wants the car transferred into his name along with all the associated bills, predictable he says no because he can't afford it. He also helpfully tells me that if even if we do this I'd still have to pay the remainder of the years insurance, so I'd be paying two lots (Yeah right! I wouldn't be paying for the lot in your name!). I ignore the easy bitchy replies to that one, tougher than you would think! I also decide to offer him the chance to stay out a couple of nights when I'm not working, to try and normalise the household for the children(and me!).